I fucking hate it when you tell me that I’d rather see you dead. Do you not see that I’ve basically put my life on hold, that I’m not in school, that I don’t have a job, that I’m living off of money I’ve saved for over six years for a ticket out..just so that someone can take care of you!? Or, are you that mean? I can’t stand that you’re acting this way all of a sudden. You know how I’ve been job hunting for a while now, well, I’ve gotten several offers, and turned them ALL down for you. Maybe it’s time to get the fuck out. I still have enough for a one-way ticket to somewhere else. Maybe I’ll go stay with Crysti in San Diego, or with my nina in Seattle. Or, even better.. go stay with friends in NYC or San Francisco, or wherever, just to get the fuck out of here. I’m just so tired of hearing that you don’t appreciate what I do for you, and your refusal to support me financially is killing my savings account. I went from having a shit ton of money, to barely even being able to afford my own habits in a matter of months. I’m tired of pretending that things will get better, or that your disease will go away, or that someone else in this family will start to help me out, or whatever. I’m just fucking tired. And, you killed my amazing mood all week. I don’t know how I’ve managed to stay afloat, and sane, for this long. But, today, no more nice girl. I’m sorry, but I refuse to respect someone who tells me on an almost daily basis that she just wants to die because I don’t take care of you. Why don’t you move, like you’ve tried to threaten everyday for the last two years? Stop acting like everything is fine. Stop saying you don’t say the things you do. Stop being such a mean person when it comes to me. Treat me like the adult that I am, and I’ll do the same to you. Until then, we are no longer on speaking terms…

I changed my relationship status to ‘single’ on Facebook, and people liked it. Geez. Good to know that I’m gonna be sad all by myself. -____- Stupid people on Facebook.